Nate, I have a new job now. I’ve been there for a few months and the other day I was telling my co-worker about you. I started laughing uncontrollably and she stared at me questionably. When she asked me what was so funny, I told her about the time you were trying to drink all of that water and I kept filling up your gallon of water every time you went to the bathroom. I miss you more days than others but I haven’t stopped thinking of you. I miss you teasing me about boys and your comforting text’s after I came home from California. I still guard the candy on my desk in fear of you stealing it all. It’s selfish, I know, but I wish you were here. I wish you were still with us. Some day, when I get to heaven, I know that you will be amongst the few people greeting me, and I look forward to that day. I miss you and I love you. Forever, Kristin

I will not…let me repeat: WILL NOT be babysitting for a very very VERY long time after this.

BOOK: “One Day” by David Nicholls

R2-D2 flash drive (my mom got it free at Toys R Us

Aveeno baby lotion (lavender & Vanilla)

Massimo Ona flats - in taupe - from Target (They’re only $15!)

Pan Am - ABC…amazing! This show completely stole me from 2011 and threw me into the 1960’s

Dear Nate,

You’ve been in heaven for exactly one year today. I can only imagine you explaining how awesome it is. I miss you terribly. I miss you hassling me about kissing the boy I liked. I miss your prank calls…every day. I miss you stealing ALL of the M&M’s I had just bought for my desk. I miss playing pranks on you during the day. I miss the time you tried to do a 10-day cleanse but ended up making yourself really sick. But, mostly I miss your always positive personality and optimistic outlook on life. I wish I could understand why some things happen in this world like why you were taken away from us. I think about it sometimes; what if it was any other American. Would the effect have been the same? Invisible Children, Mumford & many others have been so great at keeping your legacy alive. I just wonder some days about the “what if’s”. I wish that it wasn’t you. Well, I cannot wait to see you again someday, and I know we will. I love you Nate.

love always,

Kristin